Thinking...Ugh

I decided today that I over think things. Majorly over think. A friend once told me that, but that just kinda led to more thinking. I'm noticing that I'm trying to look too far a head. Instead of focusing on the now, I'm focusing on the future. Which is better than those 3 years of focusing on the past. Boy that was exhausting. But why do I do that? Why can I not just think about now? Live for now? Not for two years from now? So today I decided that it is time to stop over thinking and to stop trying to live two years from now, but live in the now.
God has a plan for me. He will lay out the ground work for that. He is laying out the ground work for that. I have a purpose in this place, and I am going to focus on that. Focus on the now.

I recently decided that I need to start spending more time with my sisters. It's one thing to say they are really important to me, and another thing to act like they are. My step sister, Kayla, is going to come down and go to Fall Retreat with me. I'm really looking forward to getting to spend time with her away from home. My step sister, Alicia, text me occasionally. I'm pretty sure she use to hate me, but I'm not sure if she does or doesn't. But since I'm being giving this opportunity to talk with her more and be apart of her life more, I'm going to take it. Plus, if I'm being honest. I have sucked at being a good big sister to all of them, and to Destiny. Thats going to change. If I can make time for everyone else then I should be able to make time for them. 

So readers. Pray about a couple things for me. 1) That I will focus on the now, and what God is doing now. and 2) That I will be intentional with my sisters. Intentional in the things I say and do, and that I will start making time for them. Thank you, and good night.