It was nice to be able to get away, by myself, for a day.
I went to Evansville Sunday to spend sometime with a friend of mine, Emily. Emily and I roomed together at ISU. Clearly neither of us enjoyed Indiana State. Anyway, I went down to see her and to take engagement pictures for her and Travis. It was kind of rainy out, but we got a lot of really good shots.
AND.....Emily and Travis asked me to be in the wedding as a Bridesmaid. How exciting is that? Let me answer that for ya. It's super exciting!
(Side Note: While down there I was feeling them in on the craziness that has been going down in Mitchell lately. Travis said he knew some people from Mitchell. First name given, Hailey Tuell. So I told him I had just seen Hailey, and the unfortunate circumstances as to why. Travis knew Peter. He and Peter pledged the same fraternity, and had classes together. Peter had introduced Travis to Hailey. I'm just saying that it's bananas. Straight up, craziness this is.)
After time with Emily and Travis I went and had dinner with Ivy. We got to have a nice visit. I missed that kid. I really enjoyed getting to spend time with her.
After my time with Ivy, I headed off to see Jalayna. We got to have a nice visit too.
It was just so wonderful to get to spend time with these four people. It was a wonderful Sunday.
I didn't get home till 1AM, and I was falling asleep in my classes Monday. Which, by the way, I don't suggest doing while you have a paint brush in your hand. However, it was totally worth it.
(Another Side Note: So Friday was the Phi Theta Kappa induction. It was kind of jank, but it made my mommy happy. Anyway, they had us kind of numbered off, and by that I mean there were 3 seats that needed to remain empty for the 3 new officers. So they have us numbered off on who will be in the first row according to the whole 3 empty chairs. I was suppose to be the last normal inductee in the front row. We get out there and it looked like they had numbered wrong so I went a head to the next row, only to look up and notice a gap in the chairs. The two people on either side of it looked confused. So to make a long story short. I sat in the wrong chair at my "smart person" induction. Fail.)
On the way home from class last night I was flipping through the radio channels, and noticed a familiar song on one of the Christian stations. I don't usually listen to the Christian stations because they don't have enough of that "soul" music that I listen to. ;) Anyway, there is a line in the song that says: "I'm going back to the heart of worship and it's all about you. It's all about you, Jesus." Got me thinking.
I've been really stressed lately. I have all this stuff stressing me out like school, trying to find yet another job, learning and executing my new role with SADD, working against dead lines with pictures, dealing with obnoxious people, family affairs, deaths.
I have a hard time handing stuff over and realizing that I am only one person and can not take the world on by myself. I think I'm still in this mind set that I am Super Woman. My focus has gone to all of these things, and my relationship with God has faded into the back ground. I'm on edge alot which I think people are starting to pick up on, and I can see my poor attitude reflected on to other people.
I really need to stop trying to fix everything on my own because I am only one person, and can not handle everything on my own. Sometimes though, guilt sets in and I feel like I have to fix things. I can't keep thinking like that or I will be digging myself an all too familiar hole.
It's time to start baby stepping out of this.
"Baby step through the office. Baby step to the hall. Baby step onto the elevator. AHHHHH!"
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