I've been running.
It's weird. I mean really intensely weird. I don't run. Not unless I am being chased, and even then its iffy.
I've been really stressed out lately. Mostly due to money issues, and partly to that whole 'whats my purpose?' thing. I go through that everyone once in awhile. Feeling completely useless. My heart tells me I'm not, but my head likes to think I am. And well....money is always an issue with me. I'm hoping that one day money won't be an issue for me or my children. One day.
Anyway, back to the whole running thing. Sometimes I just feel the need to run. Like all this built up frustration needs an outlet. So it was either run or go off on everyone around me. And I didn't want to do that. That wouldn't be fair to anyone around me. So....I ran. I run now. Thats what I do. Run.
Fall Retreat was this weekend. My step-sister, Kayla, came. I think she had a good time. She seemed excited when she was telling her mom about the weekend. I'm not sure if she got anything from it spiritually, but it was an opportunity for her to spend time with me. She seemed to really like Melissa and Addy. She liked all the girls, but those two she was really excited about telling her mother about. I'm glad that she was there.
I also got a chance to spend sometime with some new girls. Addy and Jocelyn. I really enjoy these girls. I'm looking forward to getting to know them better. I really enjoyed getting to watch all the girls spend time with one another. You can see the bonds that are forming with them. I'm really excited about that, and excited to see what's going to happen in the next few months.
(Random: Ran into the scary clown from the festival tonight, only he was in his human wear.)
I have a lot of thoughts in my head right now, but they will have to wait. Till next time readers.
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